and the meds are back in full swing
ain't life just fuckin grand. today i was in school and i started feeling the depression start to creep back upon me but i couldn't help it. im not sure what specifically it was today that bothered me so much. i think its just that im unhappy with my entire life. dads goin crazy, nick's bein nick, and my mom seems to be getting more malicious by the day. not only that but all my really close friends are really starting to get to me. when i say that i mainly just mean kevin guy and conway. its nothing bad about them specifically its just that i don't think we're at the same place in life. i can't relate to any of them. and im unhappy to be around them. well it looks like im screwed on that part of life tho because their the only ones to really hang out with. sure i can spend some time with melissa and my other friends but its like i can't get away from them. i guess another thing thats really been botherin me lately is that i feel so god damned lonely. every second it feels like the emptiness inside me gets bigger. it has nothin to do with losin kelsey, i just have been feeling utterly alone lately and i need someone. well i don't want to get too caught up in all this whiny crap so i think this is about it for today.